Death's Hand

when dad left us,
each night praying for the love it would take
to fix my parents marriage.
i would pray for the kindness
i desperately needed to face my siblings
and my mom.
now i know my words fell on deaf ears
and god is but a fancy name for nothing.
 
cried when i didn't know what love really was.
i still cry over the idea of love. true love.
when my family fell victem to death's domino effect
i knew real love was buried six feet deep.
this is why i cannot cry over you.
 
i should be sorry, but i'm not.
i should be scared, but i'm not.
nothing can hurt me quite like love.
it's not found in tulip fields or bookshelves.
when he died, my aunt couldn't stop trembling.
papa told her she couldn't shake forever,
but it has been six years now.
 
if i squint hard enough i can see him
sitting next to her at family dinners.
hand on a quivering knee, as if she sees him too.
love is a six year shiver that never stops.
it is not something you wish for.
love is love is love is love is pain.
 
love is nothing but death's hand on your shoulder.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2015

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June 28, 2015 at 8:12 AM
I have enjoyed my time reading your work this morning. Welcome to the soup, you most certainly ad flavour to the recipie. Drop by and visit, I would love to hear your thoughts on some of my work.
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June 22, 2015 at 8:38 PM
God...Nothing...Love...Pain...Pain...Love...Nothing...God...Death is always anxious for the heart to die Carlyn...there is something fearless in this poem, and the anguish creative...J.A.B.
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February 19, 2015 at 6:22 PM
Carlyn:) Congratulations on having your awesome poem featured on the soups Home Page. ~SKAT LOVE~
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February 8, 2015 at 3:56 PM
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February 8, 2015 at 2:36 PM
Carlyn, Stopping by with a nice, sweet Welcome to Poetry Soup. I will get much delight in reading and in time become familiar with your verse. As for now, I will greet you with the same smile others passed when I first joined the soup. Wishing you and your poetry the best. I hope you get to meet all the nice poets around here STARTING with me- SKAT :-) Please drop a hello and tell me a little about yourself if you wish. I would like to be your newest poetry soup "FRIEND" Hugs* SKAT
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