Death Rhyme

I sit alone and wonder why
Why don’t I have the guts to die?

There’s nothing new that can be done
There’s nothing true that can be won

I look around me as I sigh
Eyes clear, I see the great big Lie

“It was for you that Christ has died,”
is what you’re saying smug with pride

It is your pride that makes me sick,
With that you’ve made it all a trick

And if you knew your history,
You’d see you’re holy for a fee

You know it’s just yourself you serve,
You know you have a lot of nerve

Why do you lie, and to yourself?
I see you do it for your health

Until your eyes are opened wide,
You’ll never know that you have lied

But when you do, you’ll gnash your teeth
And moles will laugh from underneath

Around, around, around I go,
But I don’t move, that much I know.

My life, it’s just the same old skit,
I’m coming closer bit by bit

There is no place I’ve ever fit,
In hell, you think I’ll finally sit

I want to die, I think I can,
So how am I to do it then?

I think I’ll shoot between my lips,
I only hope my hand won’t slip

The gun I want, it’s down the hall
My brains will fly and then they’ll fall

You will be shocked, you’ll say amazed,
“I did not know she was that crazed.”

You’ll hate my guts, a suicide!
Though do you know I’ve tried and tried?

But, there’s my boy, he’s just a pup,
And I must wait til he grows up

‘Cause if I don’t he will go mad,
For he will think he was too bad

He has a right to try this life,
But is it right to hide the strife?

He is small and so has magic,
He can hide from all things tragic

Like him, I tried this too, but found
That when you’re grown, there’s none around

Now don’t be sly and try to lie,
You see yourself that I must die
Copyright © | Year Posted 2016

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August 31, 2016 at 12:52 AM
Susan, Welcome to Poetry Soup. It will be a delight to read and become familiar with your poems in the future. As for now, I will greet you with the same smile others passed when I first joined the soup. Wishing you and your poetry the best. I hope you get to meet all the nice poets around here STARTING with me- SKAT :) Drop a hello and tell me a little about yourself if you wish. I would like to be your newest poetry soup "FRIEND" Hugs **YNR - SKAT
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August 31, 2016 at 2:45 PM
Thank you!
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August 25, 2016 at 3:34 PM
- A powerful poem, but really well written Susan - Welcome to Poetry Soup :) - hugs // Anne-Lise :)
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August 31, 2016 at 2:45 PM
Thank you!
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August 24, 2016 at 12:51 PM
Hiya I like this poem however I'm hoping this person has worked out that magic is all around you and you have to also find it within xx
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August 24, 2016 at 6:15 PM
Thanks XX. I'm fine these days, this poem is from a very sad period. And, I'm starting to see a smidge of magic here and there.
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