Deafening Silence

The silence is deafening as it screams throughout my head. Making me beg forgiveness for all the things I have said. I have been a total ***** and treated you unfair. Wanting desperately to talk to you but feeling such despair. I've apologized so many times now my words don't mean a thing. Though there is still a tiny bit of hope that I must surely cling. You told me you don't hold grudges I hope that is still true. Because I value your friendship and miss the talking we would do. I hope you can forgive me this time I am sincere. And I really care I want to make that clear. Until my plea is answered your silence will scream. My heart will never mend at least for now it seems.