Dark Places

I've been to the dark places And worn a thousand faces When happiness is out of reach Sorrow is easy to breach I'm more monster than man But I never really had a plan So I've rewritten my sins And thrown them in a rubbish bin And if you look in my eyes You'll see a bevy of lifelong lies Rolled out like a bill I'll have to put my heart in the till I tried to teach myself how to feel So I could know when it's real But happy thoughts are like dreams Fleeting and they disappear it seems In myself I wanted to believe I didn't have to be a deity to achieve But I'm an imposter in my own mind A falsity that became true you'll find I still think better days are ahead And I might find them if I'm not dead But when death ekes closer and closer I'm really just seeking closure I've been to dark places And worn a thousand faces But really I just want to fit my own And find a way to atone When happiness is out of reach Sorrow is easy to breach But deep down is a light And for it I will forever fight