Dark of Night

Dark of Night
In the dark of night I awaken
the nightmare comes again
In a cold sweat, head and heart racing
I know it will stop, but when?

my Brother! I scream out loud
oh God, he needs to be healed
found him with a gun in his mouth
suicide-it’s the real deal

again it must be the family curse
as for brothers-he’s number four
with three dead of booze and pills I didn’t think It could get worse
 like their dying is settling some score

he didn’t show any fear
even when the gun went CLICK!
he was calm and his intention was clear
like in a scene from some movie clip

In an instant he would have be gone
and blood splattered all over the place
 I’d be tormented by what went wrong
each time I remembered his face

locked away in a place he can’t get away from
he’s struggling, he says he’s had enough
battered and weathered by a violent storm
wading through it is going to be tough

at 55, he almost died by his hand
God spared my brothers’ life
but he’s still a broken, suffering man
who cries in the dark of night
 -8-8-14
Copyright © | Year Posted 2014

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Gurd Avatar
September 27, 2014 at 6:18 PM
I have lost two siblings to suicide and I also know that it's a family curse as members of my extended family (mom's real mom, aunt and uncle) who I never met also completed suicide. I have multiple attempts, but I, and you, can make sure the curse ends. I can't let my suicidal thoughts and ideation win. Thank you for sharing your poem and story.
Allison Avatar
August 9, 2014 at 1:35 PM
gripping story yet so dark and tragic. Good luck in the contest:-) Hugs Jan xxx
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