Dark Night of The Soul

I heard a knock upon my door the other day, I opened it to find death staring me in the face. Out of body. Pained but not hopeless. Sunset to sunrise. Devil's on my shoulder, demon's getting closer. The joyful spirit i once knew, is no longer inside. Death is all I see in place of a smile. Guess I'm headed for a permanent scar. Doomed. The void. Sometimes you have to lose it all to find yourself. As you march towards your death, breathing your last breath. Anything for you. Even if saving you sends me to Heaven. Unwavering love and patience. If I can't have me, then no one can. I saved myself. I now know you people are the demons. God and the devil are the same entity. There is no one for me. You people rescutated me. Gave me a second chance, or yourselves? But you see I'm not worth it to you, so why are you worth it to me? I saw you. I see you. You don't notice me. The dark night of the soul isn't real. It's demonic I found the forbidden knowledge. Heaven and Hell aren't real for my kind. You hate me but I hate me more. Baby I'm a sunflower who can't bloom.