Cut So Deeply

CUT SO DEEPLY BY: THERESA SANFORD 2/22/2012 THE PAIN IN MY HEART HAS THE DEEPEST HOLE: THE DAGGER SO HUGE MADE THE BIGGEST GROOVE. TO BEGIN TO REFILL HAS THIS UNKNOWN TIMELINE, TO REPAIR ALL THE ABRASION WILL TAKE THE LONGEST TIME. THROUGHOUT MY LIFE STARTING FROM A VERY YOUNG AGE, BEING A VICTIM OF THIS CRIME WHICH WEIGHS HEAVY ON MY BRAIN. NOT KNOWING WHO TO TURN TO FOR THE COMFORT AND PROTECTION. NOT BEING TAUGHT IN THE BEGINNING TO SPEAK UP IN THIS LIFE. DURING MY TEENS IT HAPPENED AGAIN BUT TO BE HELD DOWN AND HELPLESS WAS THE SCARIEST THING. IN MY HEAD I SEEN FUNNELS, SPINNING AND SPINNING BECAUSE MY HEART IS ONCE AGAIN BROKEN. TO HAPPEN TO ME NOT ONCE BUT TWICE, TO BE THREATENED NOT TO SPEAK A WORD OF IT WASN’T SO NICE. TO KEEP THE SILENCE FROM A PERSON YOU LOVE SO DEARLY, NOT KNOWING THEIR REACTION HAD ME KEEPING IT AWAY COMPLETELY. AT FIRST, FROM A BOY AND THEN FROM A MAN, BECOMES THIS DISTURBANCE NO ONE UNDERSTANDS. WITH THAT BEING SAID, IT’LL FOREVER BE EMBEDDED IN THE BACK OF MY HEAD. TO CARRY SOMETHING SO HEAVY; AND SO PAINFUL CAN DAMAGE YOU IN SO MANY WAYS. TO FEEL THE SORROW IN YOUR HEART THAT FOLLOWS YOU THROUGHOUT YOUR ADULT LIFE. BUT, WHAT BECOMES OF THE ADULT THAT CARRIES SO MUCH HURT AND SORROW. SHE HANDS IT OVER TO THE LORD AND PRAYS FOR EVERYONE’S FORGIVENESS.