Crumbled Up Paper

Crumbled paper, I start pouring my heart out then I throw it in away and say I’ll do it again later. I put my pen to the paper and I start to write what’s on my mind, I start to speak about my youth and I get to tell my truth, I get to pause, fast forward and rewind. Line by line I tell my story, line by line I tell how I got to my glory, line by line you will feel when I was up and down and when I had to worry. Or u might not even read a word I say, cuz midway before I’m done, I crumble my paper and I throw it away. I put the pen in my hands and I let the ink flow, I let it scream and shout to the world all that I want it to know. I put my anxiety at ease when I put my note pad out in front of me. I start to change the world on paper, damn I wish I didn’t crumble it up and say I can do it again later.... I want to write so someone can read, I want someone to know that I once thought there was no saving me, I to struggled to see the positive from the negative, I also believed that because of my history I was never gonna get ahead. I let the haters all get in my head. They almost messed up my mental. My motivation was self love and that became essential. I could no longer crumble up my papers, I could no longer give in to all the haters, I could no longer say “ima get back to this later”. Innocent lives are being taken, it’s time I shared my voice and help the ignorant awaken. I share my past so you can have a future, I share my story so u to may one day have ur glory, I tell u about those before me so u never forget ur history, I’ll share with you that u are beautiful and tell you that those with perfect sight don’t just see... black and white. I promise to crumble papers no more, i promise to continue to speak for those who aren’t here anymore. I promise to stand up for my people and spread the word about the evil, I will spread awareness for the poor the weak and the minority’s and for the immigrant/refugee which are usually all 3! I will continue to stand up and speak up for u because YOU are a part of ME!