Crowded Loneliness

~~~ {There's a crowd, there's a crowd, there's a crowd of loneliness} ~~~ Here I sit surrounded by party people bizz, buzzing gleefully. But I'm in the pits down in my zone, So I can only see me. Thus, death to the chit chatty tones and slurred speech. For their voices become catty echoes far from ears reach. Got up to walk down beaming streets stepping hip to side unable to speak. Gulping squawk sounds, of steaming weeps ebbing, drip and slide down unstable cheeks. Can't hold back forsaking eye contact my prides' destroyed as I try to avoid the grandstand of gaudy faces, gaudy clothes; of hand to body collision. For lonely teardrops cloud my vision. ~~{I wish it would rain, I wish it would rain,..... I would sing it if I could sang}~~~ Head butting and unsorted collides. Zombie strutting in morbid strides. In search of a safe haven. A wide divide's what I'm craven, of needed segregation to hide in heeded dissociation. Joyful laughter, gleeful merriment and happiness all about. While my lungs fill with hot winds pressed against my chest in demand to be let out. The voice of silence, the quiet stillness of the night. The pains of yearning for thee with all my might. Curse the agony of my plight. ~~~{Can I please, can I please put my mind at ease}~~~ Where art thou, Oh shelter... Ye place of refuge? Do not leave my spirit to wilt and welter. Grant my soul your peace and grace. Nae of down pouring tears deluge. In my sorrowful demotion to bear the toil of these boisterous turmoil secures the coiled and shrouded aloofness of my crowded loneliness. ~~~ {There's a crowd, there's a crowd, there's a crowd of loneliness} ~~~ Supreme balance is a hand toss. Today it is I who bear the cross.