Conviction

Conviction I often wondered why I was here, I constantly had burdens and fears... I’ve loved, I’ve lost, And hurt with pain, It was so hard living that way... Why I put myself to live with shame, And always remind me of who I haven’t became? I wanted to be the best and you be proud, But my crazy world and crazy thoughts would not allow... No matter how hard I tried to forget the pain, It wouldn’t leave me, I did, I’m so ashamed... The ones I love, I didn’t want it this way, I closed my heart and I didn’t pray... I hurt me and I hurt you, I’m sorry I did, That’s not what I wanted to do... I had to stop and take the blame, I had to before it was too late... You showed me love, Which I didn’t deserve, And helped me through without a word... I taught you love, You gave it back, I can move on and heal from the past... It still hurts, but not as bad, It’s better than the life I had... Now I can show that I can be strong, And show you who I am and who I wanted to be all along.