Consolation

I remember when we used to be so care free, now it seems like we live on our knees. What happened to the love and joy we once had?, refusing to believe that it was some kind of fad. We both know what we had was real, Where did it go? Where's that raw feel? A feel of untainted connection, unblinded by pure affection. Not clouded by others opinion, to have control over our hearts dominion. I know I've lost sight of what brought us together, wanting it so bad and have it forever. Causing so much destruction lost in myself, giving the impression that I'm damaged beyond help. Finally after years of my heart and mind being adrift, enough of this confusion, it's time for a shift. Not just for me, but for the ones I love, the one who is reading this knows whom I speak of. My spirit can only express consolation for what you've gone through, something that has been lost between us, so rare yet so true. Anger and frustration that harbors in your heart I understand, wanting to release it forever a pain that was never planned. The pain I feel is that I miss you and our daughter, missing out on being a husband and father. I know I can't fix everything but I know that I can try, How long till I receive your love? When will that time draw nigh?