Confusion

There is nothing more important to me then the idea to just try. Try to change everything for the better other than the struggle I tend to live by. Was there ever another life set for me or was it set up for me to strive? Another lesson to learn in order to survive. I can't seem to figure it out; I dont seem to understand why! How many more struggles in life I have to go through for signs to move on by? Having to make choices in life for an unwritten success. Why is it this life of mine have to be such a mess? People always tell me what we live and go through is not a lesson but a test. For my mind to feel suffocated; trapped in confusion. Where do I go from here to make things seem more to me than an illusion? There's nothing more important to me than to make a choice. Now is the time for me to understand my own voice. Change today, not tomorrow, for there is nowhere else for my heart, mind and soul to go.