Confused

Eyes is spinning like a game host not sure what to think much more best to sit with on a side walk with the poor probably care more than the poor or hungry for the green , cash if u don’t get what It mean, left right no in between, half of the time I ain’t sure what u mean , laugh out loud made out to be a joke, still in out of hope?, cool to agree n disagree , the rest I put a lean on , I ed up never again I can just freeze on it, un sure be the best or on the list like the rest of them 50 + mine as well shot 50 jump shots and feel good with it , loyalty is hard to maintain , not many can maintain , some find a way out use the high road out , if u in i hi-five it turn the page , on the mind what some one gots mine or his ain’t on the same level at least I tried , wide or long not sure what u want , sending out objects attract interest , on the short end of the stick or wood , but remaining solid like a peace sign , should I throw a peace sign , naw ain’t for me feels like the bottom of the bucket list, there till evening morning, hands tight like a win for a close fight , walking around hand checkin dirt napping don’t make me a tough guy makes me feel like a dumb guy , alpha dog not how it go’s ,suppose to lead not spread a fear, being around it slows the life span a lot more, Clone to spare, choosen only color red , marker for life , a balance to compare on a bad one don’t compare un match one on a told being a soft side we all got a soft side be on hard brink or comfy couch take a pick, crying homie was there on yo side not the right on yo side what we are and what we aren’t i stay confused and I don’t know why should I close my eyes and no return to wake up headaches n trippin life no maybe chances , chances I had in the pit there smiling faces many dances I remain loyal but not sure still confused , I will start thinking got a clue , words to the wise, take it back to school, eyes stay str8 been loyal, but confused