Conflicting Emotions

Conflicting emotions, twirl inside of me, emotions or anger, rage pain and insanity Crying out for release, wondering when it will cease, this raging beast of conflicting emotions, no love potions, up and down on an emotional roller coaster Feelings of helplessness and despair, am not aware of the many hats that I have to wear Doing what I need to do to survive, just barely alive, does not understand the contrivance of man, or woman, the sinister appearance of a friend, til the bitter end Spread vicious lies and deceit, anger and hurt does not retreat, as I shake my head in the sadness of despair Do they care or have to bear the scars of the conflicting emotions, that are left behind Anger and rage barely un-controlled, trying to maintain a measure of composure, exposure to the unbridled truth Your varnished perception of the truth, may not be truth at all, but it's your call, to help the fall, or downfall as it were to dissent, because you feel inferior The hallowed walls of interior, the grappling to make yourself feel better, because of your inadequacy, you'd have people believe that you are honest and true Truth not in you, and you have no soul, that's why you are not whole, and complete within yourself To make you a better you, you try to be the un-doing of me, a portrayal of insufficiency But I will never give in to the conflicting emotions, swirling around like a ravaging ocean What you tried to do to me, knock me to my knees, and have me plead trying to break me, while you do you, will never hold true, and you will one day rue, what you have spun together in your web of lies I will not cry, nor will I die, I'll hold my head up high You can never be the un-doing of me, You can never rattle my faith or shake my integrity, the way that you have thrust out your hand against me, you cannot touch me, cause I am whole and you cannot touch my soul For there is a power higher than you, and you will never break thru The old adage still forever holds true, and you will one day know, That you will always reap what you sow