Cold Reminder

when I woke up there was no disturbing noise no click of a.c. fan no wind-shaken branch that creaks no car alarm rudely set no creatures stirring no bathroom feeling no intruder creeping only a thought that did not pass when I woke up what was it that was there? what woke me from sleep? keeping me awake disturbing mind’s realm feelings of despair hover heavy in the air burning like a flare angst that doesn’t leave when I woke up your scent, gone your pillow wrinkled from my clutch a cold reminder that you have stolen yourself away love fragmented, pictured incomplete as I get out of bed in my heart, dread remembering what I said unforgivable, slipped-out words when I woke up