Cold As Ice

COLD AS ICE

by BENNY WILLMORE

I feel like a beast locked up in a cage. My blood full of anger, my veins full of rage. An outcast of 
society, an outlaw by trade. Drugs before debt are the only things paid.

My heart is filled with sorrow, my emotions with pain. If I ever released my thoughts, tears 
would fall like rain. My dreams replaced with nightmares, stress has taken its toll. My body 
aches with fire, the drugs are stealing my soul.

They have taken everything, all I love the most. I now have nothing. I am living with ghosts. I 
leper of society because of my crime. A supplier of drugs, my search is all the time.

Confusion is my middle name, depression is my first. All I want, I can't have. Love and respect 
is all I thirst. Myself is who I talk to. Shadows are who I fight. My head won't stop spinning, 
every day is one long night.

Inside myself, my thoughts have turned so cold. My happiness turned to fear, speed had made 
me old.

So, I ask myself, "Can I see my past?" Every day gone by has vanished way to fast. I try but I 
can't remember, my memories don't seem to last. I lose every thing that I put within my 
grasp. 
by: Benny Willmore
Copyright © | Year Posted 2010

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December 27, 2010 at 10:09 AM
I would like to welcome you to PoetrySoup Benny. Wishing you the best in your writing endeavors. You can look to the left side of the main page and find lots of information on PoetrySoup including contests by members of PoetrySoup and contests by the PoetrySoup site also. Wishing you a Happy New Year. Love, Carol
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December 19, 2010 at 6:30 PM
Welcome to Poetry Soup.. so enjoyed reading your poetry tonight with it's creative theme.. hope your time on the Soup will be fun and filled with sharing... check out the contests too.. good luck with luv.. and happy holidays..
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December 19, 2010 at 12:24 AM
Can feel the devastation. Look to the future new world when there will be no more pain and suffering.(Revelation 21:4)
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December 18, 2010 at 10:03 AM
What a sad, powerful, yet poetic message Benny. If drugs are your demon then writing is the beginning of your rehab and refuge. You know the demon that ails you by name; you know the pain he is inflicted upon you; now you need to find the courage to banish him. As Audrey said please find help and continue to share your story with us. We hear you and we will help you through... Lay
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December 18, 2010 at 7:49 AM
Hi Benny, Hope you're doing well and this is not your reality..maybe it's someone else's story. If it is, at least you admit it and recognize it-a major step, I'm told. I guess the next step would be to go find a local help center that would refer you to where help's available to get your life back. I pray never to experience this as I could not survive so you must have some important purpose for being alive today..so run! Go get well and God bless you today and always, my friend. Audrey
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