Close To the Sand

Who is there to smoke with me Because im lost here in california I havent quite reached the sea My motive is only mere paranoia But all this seems like some dark dream Just get me out of this air wasting body Its in this skin that im ready to burst at the seam Even though they all consider me the hottie I dont think i could ever agree With their comments about how good i have it Happy is what ill never be But this all has everything to do with my secret I just want to tell them all to shut up And it seems i can never wait until tomorrow I drnk from the emptiest cup But it is filled with nightmares and sorrow And all i want more than anything is to smell the salt It radiates from the ocean like aroma from a candle Its this mind and body that i would give anything to assault Because its the misery of this life that is too hard to handle