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Change of Heart

The things I used to say,
were wrong.
How I thought of you,
wasn't true.
I was wrong.

My perspective of the situation was about me,
and what I wanted.
Not about what you wanted, 
or your opinion was really heard.
Until now.

This entire time, I chose to ignore
what was being said.
Not because I didn't want to hear it,
but because you cared.

And yet, I chose to
throw you under a bus,
practically betray you because 
I wasn't content with what I had.

I chose to seek more than "just friends". 
Which is what you wanted the whole time,
and yet I was asking for more.

I have come to terms with this,
becoming content, and accepting
this fate.
As I value your friendship more than any other.

You gave me attention noone else would.
You saw me for who I was, 
saw beyond this outside appearance, 
that is unappealing to most.
 
You were the first and only woman who was comfortable with being with me.
Even as  "just friends."
That trusted me, 
that just wanted to talk to, 
and actually listened to me.
 
You were always good to me, and I will cherish it always. 
And I fear that losing you and what I have, 
I will never feel these emotions ever again. 
I will never have an opportunity to feel more than what I have with you.

I wronged you in so many ways,
when you did nothing to deserve this.
I did this feeling hurt, when in fact it was my mind
that was destroying me.

I know I was wrong, 
all that needed to be done,
was change the perspective, 
and see things through your eyes.

Copyright © Jacen Cieno | Year Posted 2012

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