Chances

Have you ever had a chance to make a connection with someone and you blew it? Seriously think I messed that up nicely Damn I think I might go down as a guy who has missed the most chances in his life! But life goes on right? I can still see that look in her eye Its fading but its still there Have I missed my chance or am I mistaking it for kindness. I have no idea but my illness slows me down, drains my confidence, leaves me just a shell of myself. Can you believe this ****? I need a cigarette someone light me up? Desirable behavior huh Masu?