Caught Up In Loveless Thoughts

The younger I was, the quicker and kinder I responded to love, and believing in sharing, I spread that kindness to anyone fonder of my perception that all were deserving. I gave all and kept nothing to shelter me from fear; everybody thought I didn't need up-lifting words, and being left without the courage to ask, I sank deeper into loneliness being caught up in loveless thoughts. I yearned for their friendship, but none came... and by putting on an alluding smile, it didn't help indeed, because they assumed I wasn't in need; if only they had known me better, I wouldn't bear this blame! Even now, being lonely and caught up in loveless thoughts, desire for happiness doesn't seem stronger than it was!