Castle Or Search For the Light

I see a shiny castle On a high mountain top Surrounded by a starry hassle Of bright dancing stars With moon hanging on its pillars In the bed of puffy clouds I see the candle light Shining through narrow windows Of the top floor arched pillars My heart fills with unbearable Longing and desire to touch The light with my fingertips I know I have to reach it In the darkness of the night I start my pilgrimage That lasts years of despair Being lost and scared Taking risky paths that lead To the darkness and demise I panick and gave up many times After thousands of sleepless nights I float in the vacuum of despair And I am losing my affair With the shiny alluring light But in the depth of starry night I see the omen of hope and delight I see the lights of castle’s Narrow windows every night In dreams of deep insomniac daze I see my hands reaching the light In one passionate flight But it seems the castle evades My desperate attempts And flies deep in to the Darkness of the abyss After all those years Of exhausting search I am hopelessly lost Sinking into dark cold empty Nothingness I give up my Precious task once again I spend eternity in suspenseful Numbness till one day After light years away Suddenly I see the magical Light flickering again Much closer than ever In front of my eyes I reach my arms cautiously But the light doesn’t shy away For the first time I try once again Almost touching its fiery edge In one leap of despair Hanging up in the air Suddenly I see a bottomless abyss That separates me from the castle After so many years of attempts I am no longer afraid or tense I take a deep breath and descend in to the pit of running waters Into the coldness of unknown Unrecognizable scary world That I never encountered before Emptiness surrounds me After all those years of being lost I no longer struggle I must Descend into the running waters And float into the infinity But once again suddenly I feel solid ground under my feet And like a bird in one leap I fly to the mountain Till its shiny top With the wind behind my back Where the gates of the castle Are invitingly open And I step in to the Magical light That I was chasing all those Long years of Being lost In darkness