Can'T Understand
I cant understand what is wrong,
when everything is going to right.
Everyone says "Don't give up without a fight!"
Well what if I have won the battle, stolen the princess, and still feel no satisfaction.
I have entered my poems to publishers of sorts, only to be accepted.
And yet,
I long for the pain,
remember the fights,
dug a little deeper,
remembered there is light.
So I indulge in my obsession,
press the knife to my skin, i reflect.
I have a wonderful love, an angelic girl, in which she is my world.
Press the knife a little deeper, a little harsher, drag it across my skin.
I can't understand why i swim in the pain,
relish the blood, putting the knife to my neck.
I realize it now, the power the strength, it is merely a sick and twisted ambition.
And yet I could not care, lowering the blade down to my chest, I poise it above my breast,
in which underneath it beats the heart of a lover, a cutter, a fighter.
I think how badly would it be, just to be?
Instead tonight I am just naughty little Tiffany.
Copyright © Tiffany Julius | Year Posted 2010
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