Can'T Remember To Dream

I’m only okay in my sleep
When I’m far away
From my dreams
The ones I see
With eyes wide open

The delusions that
Keep me running
Pushing
Battling
With racing heart
Racing mind

No rest in sight
Afraid to dream
Even at night

Because of the half memories
Half feelings
Half words on my lips
Upon rising
That leave a bad taste 
On the back of tongue
In the back of my mind 
Like a bully’s venom 
Spit in the face of the victim 

And as I fight back
The thoughts that
Come with the light
I have to remind myself

Even Jesus cried 
And even Jesus refused
To like dying
So why can’t I refuse
To like waking
When I’m so afraid
Of living

Because even in my sleep
I can’t remember to dream
Copyright © | Year Posted 2014

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January 30, 2014 at 8:46 PM
Kara, thank you for the deep write... SKAT
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