Candy Afternoons Part One

Ya know…. I’m not here to play video games with my neighbor...to build another world on some other plane of existence...I want to be engaged by more tangible realities that fester inside the scope of society… not to fiddle in some artificial plot that seems just like them…. And I’m not here to go to the casino with co-workers …I’m not looking to screw with survival just to feel the depth of hope….just to get high off the shock of joy…. hope is a positive outlet for patience…not in the dangerous anticipation of hedonistic change…. Oh and the surprise of joy….warning…it will be taken away from you if you use it like a drug …cause then it’s something you have to abstain from in order to overcome addiction… I’m not here to gamble away what I’m allowed to feel…And I’m not here to go drinking with acquaintances at the local dive bar… I don’t need to change my emotional sensations any more in order to live in easier acceptance of the now and what comes with it… NO, I’m not here to bull crap about bathing suits at your pool parties, or to listen to your window shopping adventures…I’m sure the type of blinds you get will look just fine…and I’m tired of discussing what vacations you might go on… you do plenty of nothing here, I can’t imagine… actually, I don’t want to imagine what types of laziness you plan on indulging in… No, I’m not here to check out your gun rack… I’m not waiting to talk about moist vagina… I don’t care what color your sunglasses are or what type of car you have…. ….No… NO, I’m not here just to fill the time with lifestyle pacifiers and lollipops just to make the movement of the clock feel good…all your candy afternoons with your sugar conversations have you constantly craving sweets …even after you gorge yourself with Cadbury and Nestles… … Yes….it’s another mars bars analogy just to drive home this point that I’ve had all the butterfingers I can stand… Are Almond joys and reece’s all you want out of life? …a snickers now leads to a milky way future…. and my spare time… my efforts …my results need more sustenance than that…