Can My Small Voice

Here we are again With me with my small voice smaller still than it was before Reaching deep into the darkness to find you to give you my hand and tell you that you are not alone Here we are again with me believing with all my heart and soul that I can help you my voice cracking and you can't hear it but my heart's so strong Reaching out so tired so weak and yet so willing to reach for you even in my own fatigue and age to reach out for you to let you know you're not alone it's going to be okay everyday is such a miracle do you not see if you look for how beautiful the morning is How incredible it is at end of day the sun sets and this beautiful sunset is it not more beautiful than you can believe is it not worth living for just to see it I didn't I don't want to ask anything more from one day than a beautiful sunrise and a beautiful sunset and that I did I do something I got off the couch I did something I accomplished at least one thing that I really wanted to accomplish in any day That's how you survive You get up and do one thing One thing at least that makes you proud Dishes, laundry, paint something, fix something, help someone, clean something, brush your teeth, wash your hair, anything and then go on one step at a time one day at a time not like the alcoholics call it but just believe in every single day Give thanks for your pillow Give thanks for your sheets Give thanks for your water give thanks for showers do you know people used to only bathe once in awhile in cold water in big tubs...do you have any idea how incredible it is that we have hot water and you can stand in the shower you want to give up life and yet the reality is if you just stand in the shower in that hot water you'll feel so much better and if you think about how much you should appreciate it that that alone is enough to get you through at least one day Please get through one more day And then each day is brand new...just one more thing...do just one more thing you can be proud of as the sun sets Do you over and over cause I think you are incredible I think you are beautiful I believe in you and my love has no end Just like love is supposed to be Somewhere out here in cyber security space God gets to say just what he wants to I love you