Camouflage

I'm getting good at blending in with the wallpaper the patterns in the flooring I'm even becoming etched into the glass of the living room windows All the places that I find myself , losing myself I'm learning how to exist in between spaces I am here, but I am nowhere I stop and stare to long, I keep silent to long These days are to long don't let me mention the hours, the way the minutes add up The millions of seconds I spend vacating myself In my world lost is the new word for what resembles life on the outside everything looks fine But I promise It isn't