By Your Own Design

The first year you pledged your love for me
Then we became friends with benefits
Now you look in my eyes and say you feel “empty”
After four years, you want to call it quits

Where is the man with that captivating smile?
What became of the compassion he gave?
This hurt I feel now, was it worthwhile?
Did you know your words would hit like a tidal wave?

Just one day after learning of my illness
You logged onto “makelovetomywife.com”
My feelings I have tried to suppress
But the anger inside is a ticking time bomb

Should I lash back, spread the word you have no soul?
Or should I just learn to live alone the rest of my life?
Am I to waste tears on a man who can’t change a toilet roll?
I never asked to be your wife, but who could expect such strife?

Ready, willing and able I ran
Each time you called with a concern
Perhaps I was just part of your game plan:
Pick a victim and watch her heart burn

I won’t let go of the good memories we shared
But you'll soon be a castaway drifting on the sea
And even today, if I thought you cared
You’d have a chance to inflict more pain on me

Unhitch the ropes and let your ship sail away
Leave only some tender moments behind
Please leave today, don’t delay
This is your future, by your own design



*Entry for Lisa Hiatt’s “Letting Go” contest
Copyright © | Year Posted 2012

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Maverick Avatar
April 5, 2012 at 11:33 AM
A bittersweet write From you Carolyn,, i think it will do quite well..) yours Joe..
Novotny Avatar
April 2, 2012 at 12:36 AM
Oh my goodness. I can only imagine the self-control you posesss to be able to write with such emotion and skill about such pain. I would pray this not your life, and if it is, for strength, healing and the desire to move on. - Chuck
Smith-Johnsen Avatar
April 1, 2012 at 6:40 PM
Wow! Powerful poetry.
Horne Avatar
April 1, 2012 at 9:50 AM
yes, and i hope his ship sails far away from your shore, my friend, so he never hurts you again
Ball Avatar
April 1, 2012 at 9:41 AM
This is a very poignant piece Carolyn. Hope it's just a poem and not from experience. Great job here filled with emotion. God Bless and Happy Easter, JB
Mister Roboto Avatar
March 31, 2012 at 5:09 PM
you are brave for sharing this one my friend. Love is the sharpest double edged sword. I call those sticky situations that rip out our hearts the "the Catch 22 Flu" I hope u are doing well! If u want a good laugh, come over to my page and read about a Granny Panty Tranny named Annie! WARNING, u will bust yir gut! :)
Sweetheart Avatar
March 31, 2012 at 1:12 PM
wow .. simply magnificent write Carolyn.. every stanza was heart wrenching.. men are such fools .. after they lose someone they realize that person gave them life.. good luck in contest.. feeling the pain with u .. I kissed many frogs before my prince finally realized his own worth first and then ours as a pair.. good luck ..this is a gem and a new fav of mine.. luv..
Austin Avatar
March 31, 2012 at 12:13 PM
"Makelovetomywife.com - a stroke of genius, dear Carolyn. It should be sosorryidoneyawrong.com. Hey! Men are no damn good until they get past 80. Love, daver
Kendrick Avatar
March 31, 2012 at 8:28 AM
Very imaginative work..Great job..Reads like a winner to me..Enjoyed reading this day..Thanks for stopping by...Sara
Song Avatar
March 30, 2012 at 6:03 PM
You "let go" very well in this poem, Carolyn...unbelievable what some can do to each other in the name of love...when their precious Barbie dolls don't fit in their lil cutsie outfits anymore,..they say adios, my love!...There are some very strong analogies in here that are just riveting...Best of luck...Gotta go take shelter from a very bad storm...Toto, we are not in Kansas any more! ...ps..I know many German descent folks who share similar sentiments to yours..Many will tell u that they were forced to do what they did...afraid for their lives...Love, Gwendolen
Delacroix Avatar
March 30, 2012 at 6:01 PM
Well done once again, Carolyn! You lay out the heart of a woman quite well. Good luck in the contest. Thanks for your comments on my poem and take good care, my friend. Hope you are well. Love, Caroline.
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