broken and dismantled
Broken and dismantled,
A child left in shambles,
A mother left for drugs and gave up on her young,
Left alone with children who aren't my kin,
More and more depressed till i wish i was dead,
Life goes so slow,
Never thought it would happen this way,
Saw a brother die right in front of me,
I forgive people who hurt me,
As if i deserved the pain,
Locked in a closet,
Seeing my life play out with no control,
Thought i was safe,
People saying i had my fathers traits,
Said i would end up on the streets at 23 just like him,
Said they are here for me,
But im always alone,
Running from a monster they made,
Surrounded by zombies,
Who were crack fiends,
Surrounded by drunks,
Who would kill just for a drop of cheap whiskey,
They was always making snowmen,
With no snow,
Mama and her fiance were cocaine addicts making lines saying it was candy,
Always in the sky and never on earth,
I was addicted to the highs but was always low,
My mind in haze,
I had no control,
My body started to decay,
Tried to make a change but it never worked,
Got to the point that i got used to the death didnt cry for anyone not even my mom when she left once again,
Till i had nothing to say to the ones who were supposed to be family,
I was with people who never went to school,
In the gutter with the rats and homeless,
Went to foster care for 5 years in the system,
House to house it started to be,
New house but not home,
New family but not my own,
New body but not in control,
New room but still sleeping on the couch,
Have food but still going hungry,
Seen my friends leave and go to heaven wish i died with them,
Maybe one day ill be better,
Maybe one day ill see my brother again,
Maybe one day it wont affect me,
Sold all i had for petty cash,
Had stuff some people would never touch,
Yet i was still treated like a piece of trash,
Stayed up late nights waiting for a brother to never come,
Sent to a mental hospital to fix me,
Didnt work so they discarded me,
They said god had a plan for me,
But the devil was the only one who ever showed up,
Had to make a deal before my life was fully done,
Got out of foster care,
But i still felt alone and bare.
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