Broken

there is no point to live this life i will never find the light unless it glints off my knife there's no way i can win this fight in this life i cannot win there's nothing to be done this is the lowest i have been i cannot be the only one who else has felt this pain who else has been this broken every cure has been in vain from this nightmare can i be woken to the world i am closed and that will not change everything i say, opposed they all think im deranged is it true? i cannot tell i just know that im in pain stuck in this living hell where is my soothing rain through this all i've become hard my heart is stone my skin is oaken but my soul and mind are forever scarred so i shall forevermore be broken