Blow It

I feel a little alone Even with you by my side I feel a bit left out It's something I try to hide But I didn't do a very good job Because you just confronted me About how you saw my shame Now you want to know how I see But maybe I don't want your help Maybe it's not something I need Maybe your help isn't helpful But still you say I should take heed I just don't know what I should do You were my friend through and through But now that we are closer I just don't know what to do I'm not sure how to handle this I want you so bad, and you know it But this is harder then it seems I really hope that I don't blow it I can't, I won't not for the other So this thought for now I shall stash In fact perish the thought at that There is no way I'm messing this up You are mine and that's a fact I hope I am making the right choice Because I'm breaking the other's heart Or... maybe it's mine and I don't really know it Is this something I should start??