Black Cloud Circus

I have a growing black cloud in my heart My soul inside is slowly falling apart The decay of my spirit can be seen in sad eyes There is a growing attraction of this spectacle in an immeasurable size A freak show circus has come to town in this black cloud The audience comes with the currency of ridicule and judgment oh so proud! They point and laugh and mock me oh so cleverly! I am great for business because I am such a sad sight to see! No one knows what is really behind the curtains of my dark eyes Some where in my mind I pray for a quick demise I care too much and willing show the vulnerable card The audience mistakes my compassion for stupidity and labels me a retard There will be a point in time when I am just gone one day Some one will have to tell them the show is cancelled and to go away No more freak boy with the enlarged heart No more sensitive weirdo who is not too smart No drowning fish who can not do anything right Sorry your freak show was cancelled which brought you all such personal delight The time has come to find a new human attraction Some other poor bastard to mock for personal satisfaction