Bitter Sweet Memories

I wake up in a cold sweat I can't catch my breath I think back to when we met My lungs collapse like death My mind thinks of you as lost My heart still endlessly searches Without you i'm cold as frost I accept you're gone and my heart lurches The tears start to stream from my eye I look at the pictures i have of you The memory of your smile makes me want to die I scream "oh please god don't let it be true" The bitter sweet memories are all i hold So tainted since you passed on Your lovely words haunt my very soul I load the gun; how could i ever go on