Behind My Wall

I thought I'd give it one last try;
So, in my car I went.
I packaged up, some things you need;
And with that, love was sent.

It wasn't long; just moments gone;
When from my eyes I saw.
My phone lit up - a text from you;
A text but not a call.

I picked it up, sure I would see;
I'd finally gotten through;
And yet, instead, you spewed your hate;
Said "never come see you!".

I tried so hard; to be so still;
As I stood at your door. 
Just leaving bags upon the ground;
Then leaving, wanting more. 

I've wracked my mind; night after night;
I've tried to make it fit.
But, in my head, it's all a mess;
And broken - here we sit. 

Though you are mine, my baby girl;
A mom you soon will be..
It's clear to me that things won't change;
I'm sorry. You blame me. 

A thousand times, I've said before;
Again, I'll say it too..
Apologies, I'll give to you;
But, for you, that won't do. 

As much as you despise me;
You should look within your core. 
As much as you have hated me;
It's made me love you more. 

But, now I must; I've no choice left. 
For now, I'm at my ends.
There's nothing left; it's clear to see;
The two of us won't mend.

So, from afar is where I'll be;
Still loving you from there.
I'll love you both - my Danny boy 
The two most perfect pair. 

Afar I'll stay; it's for the best;
Cuz, I am fading fast.
My heart is broke my soul is numb;
I'll always live my past. 

But, for us both; us three; us four...
I'll stay back from you all.
I'll cement blocks to keep me there;
I'll stay behind my wall.

Though, you may not see me, just know;
Behind that wall I'll be;
I'll love you till the ends of earth...
Though, sadly, you won't see.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2015

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Makama Avatar
April 26, 2015 at 11:03 AM
Sound poetry like a mid night song scrubbing the mind to peace and comfort. I love everything about this page and a 7 definitely.
Smith Avatar
March 4, 2015 at 2:41 PM
Bobbi your heart is bleeding through your words...I am so sorry for you...maybe once that grandchild comes and she gets a taste of motherhood she will see it in her heart to forgive....hugs Tim
Bm Avatar
March 6, 2015 at 5:02 AM
Thanks Tim! I pray everyday things will get better. God will help is if it should b his will. Thanks, and yes, my heart is bleeding. I guess ours all do T some time. This....poetry. Lol
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