Battling Addiction

“I’m Tim and I’m an addict, and I last drunk a week ago.”
The circle replied ‘hi Tim’, all their eyes fixed to my shuddering body
All unaware of the eccentric movement of my quivering lips, all not wanting to be.
The chair was shaking and the room was hot, I was waiting for that time when;
I’ll be out of this circle of people of my own vice, and I’ll see my doctor.
I’m waiting for that moment ill bid her good bye and program another session.

And then I’ll go for a run across the bridge down the river,
I’ll sit by the river side and mine my gin bottle take a sip and pray;
Pray hard that the booze runs out; pray hard that id grow allergic to it,
 Pray more for the sip to be the last. Just like I’ve always done a year down the road.

I reviled what I had become she hated how fast I had changed;
 She detested everything that I was being to the little one.
From a span she would sniff my, breathe and shield our little one from my hug.

Frustration would lead me to the basement where I would drink until I pass out.
Another gone by and in another circle I sit;
Their eyes affixed on me with attentive intent of welcoming my testimony
‘Hi, I’m Tim; I’m an addict and I drunk last a week ago.’

The circle answered ‘Hi Tim’...
‘I’m trying to quit’ I added.
Copyright © | Year Posted 2013

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Martin Avatar
April 11, 2013 at 1:16 AM
Wow, the stanza about the little one and the shielded hug brought tears to my eyes. Congrats on your win.
A   Avatar
March 10, 2013 at 9:04 PM
LUCAS, :-) CONGRATULATIONS in Anne's "Battling Addiction" contest.. I think very highly of Miss Anne, take care~ LINDA
Sister Avatar
March 9, 2013 at 7:57 PM
Congrats. I was there right with you, you captivated me.
Tams The Golden Girl Avatar
March 9, 2013 at 5:49 AM
Congratulations on your win Lucas xx
Dillard Avatar
March 7, 2013 at 8:15 PM
It's a hard ol' road, but it can be whipped! Congratulations on this first step victory! RAY
Jones Avatar
March 7, 2013 at 7:16 PM
Congratulations :-)
Lamoureux Avatar
February 18, 2013 at 4:12 PM
Very heartbreaking, I grew up in a family filled with addiction. It is a tough cycle to break but it is possible. You have described it so well. I hope this is not your life and if it is I pray that it will not be for long.
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