Battle Lost

Have you ever fought for your life,
Ever begged the demons to let you drop the knife,
Im always looking for a new high of a new drug,
Drinking anything they pour in my cup,
I would say its to escape reality,
But in reality its just me hoping for a fatality,
I know your scared i promise i have been there too,
I luckily made it out like a few,
But most people cant climb outta that hole,
Waiting for it to be covered up not realizing there death has a greater tole,
On the outside i might be smiling,
But on the inside im really dying,
If these thoughts do end up taking my life,
Just know i tried to drop that knife,
But i couldnt bring myself to drop it and walk away,
So here i am on the floor and i bleed as i lay,
Praying to wake up and see that it was all just a dream, 
But to me what does life even mean?
I see these people with the happy life then i look at me,
I bet i look happy too but deep down is what you needed to see,
Maybe you could have prevented this and my life wouldnt have been the cost,
But this was just one of the many battles that i lost..
Copyright © | Year Posted 2016

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July 25, 2016 at 1:04 AM
NICE TO SEE THIS ONE AGAIN, JAKOB, SKAT
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July 23, 2016 at 4:50 PM
Sorry to read you lost the battle, Jackob, Welcome to Poetry soup, I hope you enjoy the community. Here, you will find friendly poets who enjoy supporting one another. I myself, enjoy reading and commenting those who want to be read. The only time I give constructive criticism is when a poet desires it. However, if for some reason the poem is not my field I will guide you to someone who is more qualified than I. Stop by and read one of my poems if you like. My poems are not perfect, but I have a feeling you might like one. I encourage you to check out the contest page and read to receive comments. Tell me a little about your poetic skills if you like. It will be my pleasure to follow and read every poem you post from here on :) We are Lucky To Have you. Your New Poet Friend @-> LINDA <-@
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July 22, 2016 at 2:07 AM
Nice poem Jakob;)
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July 21, 2016 at 4:59 AM
Deep write, Jacob, I really enjoyed this poem , Welcome to Poetry Soup. It will be a delight to read and become familiar with your poems in the future. As for now, I will greet you with the same smile others passed when I first joined the soup. Wishing you and your poetry the best. I hope you get to meet all the nice poets around here STARTING with me- SKAT :) Drop a hello and tell me a little about yourself if you wish. I would like to be your newest poetry soup "FRIEND" Hugs **YNR - SKAT**
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