Baby Boy

I had a pulse and a beating heart, Yet you chose for my life not to start, How could you have been so careless as to conceive me, Make me think I'd dwell with you here on earth only to deceive me,.. You would have been so mesmerized, By what you would have seen in these newborn eyes, There's not a feeling that even begins to compare in this world, Do you ever even wonder If I'd have been a boy or a girl,?.. I'm sorry mommy that we never formally met, I'm sad for you though because even though you never knew me you won't ever fully forget, I'm here in heaven mommy with my king, He loves me like I would have loved you mommy more than anything,.. I forgive you though mommy with all my little heart and soul, Please seek my king mommy for he alone can fill the hole, The one that grows immensley each time you shed those tears from lack of peace and joy, Remember mommy only my king Jesus can dry them and make it better well gotta go now, "love me your Baby Boy,..... Leah (Howes) Russell 11-5-2005