At times I wonder

At times I wonder to myself why did I even let him back too my life when he lied and betrayed me not once but twice. At times I wonder to myself do he really loves and cares about me. At times I wonder why am I doing so much for him when his not doing it for me. At times I wonder why me why it has to be me. At times I wonder still the same he will never change. At times I wonder why he always blames me for what he did and always defending her but not me. At times I just wonder.