Dan Enache Poet Free verse

Apologies to Time

Apologies to Time

I'm sorry I didn't find myself when you called out silently to me again and again,  
I thought you were rushing me but you were only begging me to look with open eyes,  
I'm sorry I used you like something endless and without clear boundaries,  
I'm sorry I spent you healing wounds that had no need of healing.

I wasted you carelessly when you were telling me what matters and what doesn't matter,  
you were giving me signs and I answered with my sins called weakness,  
I called them habit, I called them life, I justified them with empty words and excuses,  
I dragged you even into my love asking you to wait with me there.

I remained loyal to hope loving someone in silence like a cosmic mute,  
believing that waiting was proof that my feelings were pure and sincere,  
I told myself that love needs time so I waited and waited,  
without knowing the difference between patience and the fear of moving forward in life.

You spoke through weary mornings and through conversations half-finished,  
through dreams that kept returning because I refused to end them when I was awake,  
I blamed you for my age and for the heaviness in my hollow chest,  
for the mirror that asks questions I wasn't brave enough to answer.

But it was never your voice only my cowardly and continuous avoidance always,  
I said I have time when what I had was actually just fear and dread,  
I said tomorrow when today was already breaking into pieces beneath my feet,  
I said I will become when becoming needed sincerity not waiting.

I'm sorry I turned you into a threat when you were trying to be a teacher,  
I'm sorry I cursed your speed instead of understanding your warning,  
you never took anything from me you are not the thief of my lost life,  
I gave everything away slowly and knowingly pretending not to notice how it all disappears.

If this sounds like regret it's because I finally listened to your clear voice,  
and if this sounds like truth it's because you left me no more room to lie,  
I'm sorry because I didn't find myself when you called out silently to me always,  
I thought you were rushing me but you were only begging me to look at reality at last.

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Daniel Henry Rodgers January 30, 2026 at 10:32 AM Hello Dan, There’s a hard-won clarity portrayed so well in your words, the kind that only arrives when excuses fall away and the heart decides to tell the truth at last. Winter Blessings, Dan, Daniel Dan Enache February 1, 2026 at 8:17 AM Thank you so much!