Anxiety
I plan to spend a weekend with someone whom I adore
And yet I sit here panicking of what you have in store
You want me to save money instead of spending it for fun
Perhaps you have your own plans for me, now what have I done?
Anxiety
You tell me how my life should be and what other folks should do
So when she quit her job I instinctively lied to you
I disapprove of her and yet YOUR criticism's what I fear
I don't know how to tell you things that you don't want to hear
Anxiety
Once I lied to you and turned my whole life upside down
I was hoping that my secret life could rectify my frown
Now the past is in the past but I still fear that you'll leave
You'll realize I'm not worth it, now it's your turn to deceive
Anxiety
I flip-flop back and forth about wanting to reproduce
The fear of upsetting you comes from years of your abuse
I feel like I am strong enough but how can I be my own
When anxiety is all I feel, these feelings are my home
Anxiety
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The Dark Side of Love - Poetry Contest 2/2/16
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