Another Dream

Another dream My strength seeps from the cracks, crevices ripped in a single slip Reaching for hope again I left my chest wide open Streams of worth flow like lying children stealing quarters from the collection plate at Sunday school - knowing it is a sin More of the same, though different beneath stained glass shadows with leaking pens pointing to the exit vestibule below Staining my crisp white shirt, collecting in the wrinkles of this button down nightmare, pooling at my motionless feet Exhaustion cradles and I can’t move, losing a step at each turn Internal screaming becomes deafening as the pain sings harmony off key I see my face in the stainless steel but can not reach my wrists It falls, mingling with debris, scattered amidst this love I’ve lost I am weak, I know weak, I have taken this test before Lessons on blackboards never sink in, report cards inked in letters far down the scale There is no more running, only hiding from myself Sleeping in the darkness of my fears knowing they will only bring another dream, that I will once again follow