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And Thus, Silence Reigns

A single word was all it took
To shatter my resolve and make me open a door
A single word I could only hear
Because I've been popping placebos for months

Blocked from your voice, but not your words
Under no fault of either of ours, just a misunderstanding
Yet the sight of those words was enough
To shake the world I built from ashes to its very core

I responded in kind and gave into curiosity
Checked to see if the heavy castle walls and chains you built
Still remained to this day, but I quickly learned
I was the reason you set them, and the reason you cut them

I unlocked my doors in kind, yet to heavy trepidation
And the anxiety rocked my core to bits
For you attempt to return the world to its old status quo
As an agent of Law to fight the tide of Chaos

So I shuttered the windows once more
Locked my doors and sent my new kingdom into the sky
Twenty two years I've roamed this earth now
And I've no time to let old abusers back into my castle

I'm not the same broken toy you could return to play with at your whim
Shattered as I may be, I'm stronger on my own than I've ever been
Of course, not completely alone, as a cherry blossom casts shade upon me
And was the unwitting mast I needed to weather the storm

Regardless of how you feel, the changes you may have made
No matter how strong you've gotten in our absence
No matter if you're the opposite of how you once were
I'll never forget the old nightmares you made me live

Not a matter of strength; I'm more than strong enough
I made a new life, stronger than before
I just don't need you poisoning my wells
If not with cyanide, than with anxiety

I don't need your memory tainting the new life
I won't be seeing your face in my nightmares and dreams
For all intents and purposes, you're an ink blot on a burnt book
And thus, silence reigns

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