An Appointment

a day like any other day but X on the monthly photos of Mount Fuji calender says different as circus clowns with painted smiles juggle the day's events for this yes undecidedly different day of days finding myself driving in non gps directions but calmly listening to piano waltz variations on this very one can only say variant day of days then not a sign of the apocalypse but careful doors open by themselves leaves me thinking lazier and less needing to be but ocd counts moments from being here and when i can enter the automated world of a building that feels and even smells of potential insanity yet feels welcome now i find i'm face to face with the person who has created me to be the functioning socially one i am he asks about what since last time fine fine fine walking life's tightrope line above an abyss that is all but three inches below he says seemingly knowing that i'm fine fine fine showing a graph of where i was then and where i'm happily at smiling saying see you next time but this time make it four months you're still crazy i assure you have a good day