Am I Me

How does it feel to live life with a heart that doesn't beat. Resembling a zombie walking emotionlessly down the street. Remembering when I stood with pride as I stand on my feet. Now I crawl along the ground trying to not admit defeat. Doing my best to push on embracing everything that my parents taught me. Yet I always seem to build myself back up with parts that are faulty. Only thing I've been good at is making mistakes. Regardless of how I try to do whatever it takes. So now I live life numb to how I feel. Sadly I became this way, chasing something that's wasn't real.