Almost

almost but caught on a dime, stopped in time. almost but not quite mine. almost captured a room, heart in a tomb. almost want to head to the moon, but not quite, almost one in a crowd, just too loud. almost but seized before proud. i'm not right just almost & always left behind, maybe next time. almost to the end of the line. i'll be fine, i'm almost. just. almost just shy of too pretty & not quite the kind of smile you can bring home to mother but almost. elusive 1st place & always taking up space. second in every race. why do i try? my prize will forever be marked that i'm almost. better then she but hopeful little me is only the perfect outfit with 1 missing thing, an almost. or why bother? "try again you ungrateful daughter" almost better then. always the 9 but never the 10. a choice after 1st, we call 2nd. never best or special chosen. just almost. what comes before end? after the 1 who wins? i almost did; fell short again. the 'disappointment' state i live in. don't worry, for you i'll give in. i always do, i know my place. over i've played this game. waiting for cold & dense rain, so i can wash away these thoughts in my brain that maybe this once i can be "1" & feel what it's like to be on the other side of... almost.