Andrew Jarvis Poet Rhyme

All This Time

Fists so clenched
Face so red
Spit hitting my face
Was it something I said

I shouldn’t have touched your books
You’re worthless
You’re nothing
But I just wanted to look
You’ll never be anything

I always won the potato sack race
But the day you came I fell on my face
Frozen in shame, feeling so low
I looked up at your face
It said ‘I told you so’

All this time
I thought it was me
Sinking my own ships
I don’t deserve to succeed
Always failing at what I wanted to be

I finally realised 
Whom you were talking to
I didn’t need to be in the room
Just you with you

What caused that self-loathing?
What happened back then?
Nobody wins a war except
Bankers and businessmen

I know you must have hurt
Couldn’t forgive yourself
So let me do it for you
So I can free myself

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Beata Agustin March 22, 2025 at 5:24 AM Thanks for sharing this... exposing your thoughts through your unique poetic style. Meanwhile, I greet you with the love of the Lord, expressed by John 3:16 of the Bible, "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life." Be blessed.