All Is Not Lost

I know so much, but I do not know myself Wolf personalities as well as those of an elf I have put all these on the shelf Maybe I am losing me Maybe the world is just mean, With all its paradoxes, And am acting like a tinderbox I am looking over my shoulders all times What what I want to be some time Even though life is what you make it, sometimes life itself makes us, we become it Life never ends, dreams are never bent Betwixt reality and fantasy, many things I yearn to amend Hoping I will soon find my end Frogs in the well do not understand the sea, But what if I say I am that frog in the sea?, it may seem Sounds like a complete break from reality But I am still a finality, Indeed my finality I have had uncountable friends But now they are more than strangers, let's not pretend Hey pals, invite me to the dance, wait I lack good shoes Wasn't universally despised from you, 've got to choose My window closed a century ago Got to the entry of every door Many things I had to forego Chose a different path And it was said that I am a psychopath I will remain to be a cloud hanging over your shoulders Your entire life, till you cross my borders 'Two wrongs to do make a right, an eye for an eye makes the whole world blind' Unless this makes sense, then my path will always lead to a different direction And we don't have to love power more than life Thought the day I met you was the day I was born, Seemingly, our association was the center of strife I was chasing a ghost, Now I am in the deep end of the pool, But I wanna act like I can swim, yet still the ghoul Till all is not lost Buddies, sometimes a man has to surrender to fate Seldom hold on your horse, it would be too late Hope this will make sense a little longer, 'Absence makes the heart go fonder' If you throw me cheese anytime now, in fact, I'd still act like a rat All is not lost @Josemaria Joel