All I Have Lost

All I have lost, I cannot find again. And all I find, I fear I’ll never lose. I only live for when my life will end. My soul is filled with words I cannot pen. My days are spent chasing a wary muse. All I have lost, I cannot find again. The shadow lurks and thinks, “Not if, but when?” A voice and presence I dare not refuse. I only live for when my life will end. My mind dwells on all that might once have been- Love, light and life with the power to choose. All I have lost, I cannot find again. What good is life when it is naught but sin? No need for Hell when I’ve myself accused. I only live for when my life will end. My thoughts force down on ice already thin, No riddance of dead weight will pay my dues. All I have lost, I cannot find again- I only live for when my life will end.