Agoraphobia
Born into the frustration of this life
A fire fueled by abuse and negativity
Feelings of anger flood over me
I can’t breathe
Panting and gasping because this fear consumes me
All that remains within me is dark
I am lost and afraid
There is no light to lead me to safety
This darkness is constantly with me
Chains of depression bind me
I am in need yet I do not ask
Life evolves around me and I remain the same
Crying from within the hole that once was my soul
Though many surround me, I remain alone
I see the world outside and long to fit in; to participate
I reach for the door but it grows farther away
I search and yet somehow there is no other opening
Opportunities pass by like rivers
I suffer in constant sorrow
My heart beats rapidly out of control
My breath is jagged
My muscles ache and spasm
My chest is constricted
Darkness overcomes me and the world is silent
I faint to the floor
Another day gone
Locked inside the walls of captivity I remain
People pass, birds fly free, children laugh and play
Winter, spring, summer, and fall
Every second of every minute
Every minute of every hour
Every hour of every day
Every week of every month
Every month of every year
Every year for all of my life
I exist but do not live
I am a prisoner and a slave to fear
*For Sami's Small Cage, Big Bird contest
Copyright © Lena Townsend | Year Posted 2009
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