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~~Poet Destroyer A: Judged 2020 October 01
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Agoraphobia

*Image of Agoraphobia by Pixabay. KJV John 8:32 "And ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free."
Agoraphobia I mistook my pain for a summer's eve, For this is what loneliness does to me, Adrift on an orchid sweet stern petal, It is lofty thoughts that steer my mettle, For such frees me from my isolation, Self-delivered like my separation, Sites make a quarry, I try to withdraw, Diverse regions clumsy, like a jigsaw, Simply, naught to gain any sense I face, Seclusion oddly is my happy place, A zenith sun beats away at my door, As carpet brand paces made on the floor, Meds just let others see me at my worst, For my inner self tells me I am cursed, No potion concocted, no spell was said, A sad delusion this shadow has spread, A shedding sun frees me from my prison, Like so many, I somewhat have risen, But unlike them, it is for mixed reasons, My annular trek for all four seasons, The night, my phantom friend, my luxury, As it lingers, it will embolden me, Though my rest will not be the same but brief, For my restless mind robs me like a thief, As tomorrow lends vast hope advances, Can I recover, what are my chances, For I dread the dawn, fear it be the same, To hide and not be found plays out this game, It is common knowledge for those who know, Agoraphobia, my true shadow. 2020 January 12
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Radice Avatar
October 8, 2020 at 1:50 AM
A poignant and brilliant write William. I feel your pain of anxiety and fear through your words. It must be exhausting for you. Learning to control feelings sounds so easy but, of course, it isnt. It's not for everyone but I know psychotherapy can truly play it's part in helping. Cheers - Gary
Kelii Kekaula Avatar
October 8, 2020 at 11:12 AM
Thank you, Gary, for it is wondrous to express and be understood overall, as it bears upon the aiding process, albeit, I have adjusted myself to a better me and better days since I had dealt with it and moved on, Aloha! William
Dutta Avatar
October 7, 2020 at 9:46 PM
EXCELLENT. Big Congrats to win. Blessing
Kelii Kekaula Avatar
October 7, 2020 at 10:12 PM
Thank you most kindly, Anisha, good night my friend, Aloha! William
Roper Avatar
October 7, 2020 at 9:10 PM
Great write , William, in Linda's contest, she is one of the very best poetess here. Congratulations on your win. Hugs Eve
Kelii Kekaula Avatar
October 7, 2020 at 10:05 PM
Thank you, Eve, for your enlightened message and considerations, Aloha! William
Kauffman Avatar
October 7, 2020 at 8:56 PM
William you have linked your eloquent poem with a powerful scripture. We cannot heal until we bring the skeletons in our closet to God's gentle, healing light. Thank you for sharing and congratulations my friend! Aloha!
Kelii Kekaula Avatar
October 7, 2020 at 10:10 PM
Sorry, busy watching John's SD now 0-2, earlier, my A's hanging 2-1, finger's crossed for tomorrow games.
Kelii Kekaula Avatar
October 7, 2020 at 10:01 PM
This mental crippling fragments of my past, has been replaced by physical crippling ailments, non-severely, just annoying, Sam, as a former pastor mom in Heaven watches o'er me, 'tis healing process to express and share to the complete unaware or those on the brinks of it, Aloha! William
Agustin Avatar
October 7, 2020 at 7:30 PM
Thanks for sharing this "burden" in your poetic style. With God's help, propped by His truth you quoted (John 8:32), you can be delivered. Such is my prayer. Congrats in your placement. God bless you.
Kelii Kekaula Avatar
October 7, 2020 at 9:43 PM
I've mom for company, e'er so oft, she crowds me, Beata, naught to worry as former lives are now made anew, Aloha! William
Dietrich Avatar
September 18, 2020 at 7:26 PM
wow, William. I would never have guessed you had this problem. It makes me wonder how extreme your case is and what brought it on (I was always interested in psychology and find these things so intriguing). I'm sorry if it makes your life difficult, but I do not know your circumstances very well. This is a brilliant portryal of it.
Kelii Kekaula Avatar
September 18, 2020 at 9:10 PM
Meds prescribed are both labeled "as needed", musing makes seldom use of them, for it furthers my contentment, it is also consoling to share this burdensome weightiness, as I feel it lifting away from me, bringing in a measure of relief, as experienced by my pricey appointed discourse--thanks for the free session my friend, and again, I truly welcome your visits, Aloha! William
Blodgett Avatar
January 19, 2020 at 4:54 PM
So beautiful and introspective. Read three times. Congrats on your win Lonna
Kelii Kekaula Avatar
January 19, 2020 at 5:16 PM
Wow, thanks for your time that you undertook, appreciate it Lonna~@wk
Toney Avatar
January 19, 2020 at 8:58 AM
This is very good, William, and a Fav for me. Thank you for sharing your heart with us, and congratulations on your placement in Silent One’s contest! ~Mark
Kelii Kekaula Avatar
January 19, 2020 at 9:24 AM
Wow, thank you, Mark, for your thoughtful words, I appreciate you taking your time in ponderance of my poem~@wk
One Avatar
January 19, 2020 at 7:23 AM
Something a lot of people suffer from and many do not understand.. written so well.. Congratulations on your placement in the contest..
Kelii Kekaula Avatar
January 19, 2020 at 8:27 AM
Thank you, for the inspiration and for my welcomed placement~@wk
Pandit Avatar
January 13, 2020 at 7:20 AM
Amazing how you wrote this in rhyme with 10 syllable lines--kudos for you achievement and the introspective dialogue you wrote. A winning poem you wrote, William.
Kelii Kekaula Avatar
January 13, 2020 at 7:34 AM
Cheers again with another astute sharing, and caring Vijay~@wk
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