Agonizing Apathy

Here I am, again The place where it all falls apart Where the light disappears For the struggle of my heart My soul yearns...for pleasure A nice, sound, ending To pain, suffering, inconvenience The incessant blending ...of circumstances, truth, reality, experience Ugh!!! There is no freakin' reality In this world, that can have my heart Haven't I proven it...enough Impatience wants to impart ...facts Nice, another something to add To the endless monotony of information I'm exhausted from processing REVELATION I want presence...the kind I can hold Except, experience has taught me well The moment I possess, I can't enjoy The passion to live in this sensational hell Am I from here??? I believe I am a foreigner In a land of relative friends Having no tolerance for difference Or learning how to blend ...without losing composure I believe I will go to bed Enough has been said At least when I sleep I have no need ...that alludes satisfaction. Written by Trudy Schrader on 06/09/2019